So. Three years ago -- March 19th, 2004, 00:01 EST, I posted
12 Latin Phrases that Aren't Quo Vadimus aka, Some Ways It Didn't End.
A big part of my brain is going
how the hell was it only three years ago? Another part ... well. Normally the other part would say
it feels like it was just yesterday, but no. It definitely feels like it was
a million years ago.
I read it again yesterday, for the first time in a very long time (
ask
slodwick... after I post things, I very seldom go back for another look. I have, an embarassing number of times, been completely unable to recognize references to my own stories). But yeah, I read it again yesterday and was oddly happy with it.
Part of that comes from the places where I can see that my own writing has changed. Part of it comes from the fact that it hasn't changed
that much. Part of me is amused that I was stealing things from Dan and Keith before I started doing it intentionally (but, considering the show itself was built on a foundation of stealing from Dan & Keith, I'll just chalk that up to ... my subconscious attempts to be true-to-show). Part of me is having a hard time not going back in and overhauling things, and another part likes some stuff so much, I can't believe it actually came from my brain at all. Part of me died when it found a three year old typo (
that, I fixed). Part of me's a little grumpy that I may have peaked so early in my fanfic career. That part of me is just straight talking shit, however, and is now in the corner, having been bound/gagged.
This was a crazy idea from the half-cocked start. I pitched something vague to
slodwick, who assured me I could do it.
barely_bean hung on paragraphs and demanded more throughout the duration of the story's quilt-like piecing. The only reason it got finished at all was because of a deal I made with
celli in a dark booth in a bar in New York. So much changes in fandom, nearly every single day. But three years ago I posted that fic, in large part because of those three women, and three years later they're all still in my life. And in this whole story ... that's probably my favorite part.